how good of a sister could i be
to erase all the horrible mistakes i’ve made?
would the future ever be enough
to make up for the past?
’cause right now
it feels like there’s nothing in this world
that could take away this guilt from my heart
i am haunted
by those tiny moments
in which i’d been possessed
to do the things i did and say the things i said
a whole life
has been destroyed
by the impact of fleeting blind moments
laced with raging anger and reeking of regret