i want
to write
i feel
so plain
so empty
so useless
i want
words
but
i hate them
because
i don’t want
to rely
on them
to feel
myself
again
i should
be
just as
i am
regardless
of what
i do
and don’t do
i should
feel free
and worthy
and important
and creative
and alive
and beautiful
and genius
innately
within
