i want to write this pain away,
draw you with words that are too little for you;
a universe you left in me, a tragic catastrophe,
and i don’t know what to do with it anymore.
should i, with all this ache, forget you?
should i, with my wishful desires, get back to you?
should i, with the weight of this beautiful burden,
forget myself completely and breathe for you,
keep guilt away from you,
but watch regret stinging you like a bee
every time the thought of our love
comes to your alluring, exquisite mind?
every time another’s lips touch yours,
all you think of is me and the damage you’ve done;
every time our song plays in that little coffee shop,
your whole day is cancelled, for it dedicates itself to me,
as the feelings of longing, craving, and regret
make their way to your lost, tentative heart.
you finally realize:
you’ve made the biggest mistake of your life.