I will dress up,
Put my heels on,
My hair down,
My smile on,
But oh I wish
I could blow off
This candle of
Grief inside me
Too,
This fire of
Sorrow flaming
My insides out.
For I am in
Complete numbness
And
Utter sadness
All at the same time.
But I am forced to
Ignore it,
Force myself to
Forget it,
Just for a day,
Just today,
At least pretend
I’m not burning,
Keep on smiling..
I owe it to myself,
My family,
My faith.